I’m the one ‘being cooked’. In the heat. Grilled and simmered. I wonder what the flavor will be as well as ‘how well done’ I’ll get.

DUE TO CONFIDENTIALITY ISSUES,  I AM DELETING MOST OF THIS BLOG.

BUT THE HEAT STAYS ON IN MY LIFE. HOPEFULLY I AM BECOMING MORE APPROPRIATELY SEASONED.

Sigh! That is the yelling out of MY fear of conflict, awkwardness, powerlessness … Yep, I am in a hot spot.

It amazes me how our Jesus was so capable of staying grounded in truth and kindness while he had so many around him who were disgruntled and challenging of him… How did he do that? How did he grow the capacity and skill to be such a man?

There needs to be some more ‘cooking’ done to get me more purified and ‘well done’ . I need to grow in my own sense of security. In my own capacity to be in conflict and live in ways that I am pleased with myself. To be able to live out more of what i so greatly admire and appreciate in Jesus. To develop an even greater spontaneous depth so that I will fully welcome the ’strangers, wounded, and ‘unloveable’ even when it will be messy.

Other vital issues are heating up and simmering within me. But it is time for me to take this lady to bed, so that story will have to wait for another time. I do hope I find/ make time to capture it soon.